September Monthly Message

Well I am late on the September Message, but I’m sure you all could use the info still. August was quite the month. Clarity and movement seemed to be highlights for many. September will be interesting. Still feel the energy of chaos swirling through, but if you have done the work of the last few months, you will experience it more as happening around you to others or you will just be able to handle it better than before. The chaos will not set off internal chaos, but instead help you find your focus and commit stronger to your path. Here is what the Fairies have to say:

The rest of 2019 is building to the shift of January 2020. Really, you can say everything till this point has, but especially the next few months. For some, this will be the breakthrough point. For others, it will be the breaking point. It is a time when your mass consciousness shifts from an old paradigm to a new. It is when the old systems and ways of being on Earth and ways of operating that have all been limping along and grasping at straws to keep afloat will finally sink. You can see rewards already for those of you deciding to do it differently, but know that all you are doing now is truly set up for the beginning of 2020. This is your month to claim it. September brings opportunities, support, possibilities you hadn’t thought of, and some clear steps forward. Stay open to all the possibilities. Nothing should have to be a struggle. Allow the natural flow of your life to surface.

The Fairies

August Monthly Message

If July was the shuffling of the deck, then August is the dealing of the cards. You just need to take a good look at your hand. All your options will be clear by mid to late month. The first half of the month is tying up loose ends and completing the work of the eclipse and retrogrades. The last half is the choice point. You will no longer be able to waiver. It will be time to make a choice. You have been preparing for this choice and have actually set the energy in motion for the last few months. You will be clear and know exactly what you need to do. It will be easy to see what needs to be done, but not easy to take the step. Many of you already see and know the way the energy is moving you. Stay open and willing to see all that is being revealed to you. As we step out of the shadow of the eclipse and the retrogrades, all the truth is coming to light. Here is what the Fairies have to say:

August burns with clarity. Let yourself open to bigger possibilities than you thought possible. Your path is opening. July brought you all the truth you need to see. Many of you made the changes you needed to make. You will have the room to breathe that you have been asking for. A strong fresh wind will blow through the planet and it brings with it swift movement. Struggle will fall away and you will see the missing pieces and how to make them go into place. Harvest is beginning, still most fruits need a little more time to be fully ripe. By the end of the month, you will feel like you are standing on solid ground. Many of you have felt tossed and thrown in the earthquakes running through your life. You feel as if you are fighting tornadoes and bracing against tidal waves. Now you will hear the stillness of nature and see all the beauty that was brought to the surface by the chaos. Enjoy the still moments. Let them soak into your bones and replenish your magic.

-The Fairies

Riding the Rapids

Since I seem to be having the same conversation with clients, friends, and family, I thought that I might need to put this info into a blog for all those that may need it. We are in the middle of a lot of powerful astrological energies. Eclipses and retrogrades are all about the shadow side of things, meaning the things we don't want to look at, old patterns and dynamics that we need to revisit and let go of completely, and all the loose ends that need to be tied or the things that we were clinging to that need to be released before we move on to our next phase. This month, that focus seems to be on relationships.

So many couples fighting or splitting up, friendships falling apart, new relationships that trigger our fears, and old relationships (friends or lovers) coming back to be revisited. Really, the core is old dynamics. Do we want to repeat them or do we want to break out of them? You can sit and focus, blame, or resent the other person, but you are better off looking at yourself.

Our relationships reflect our inner world. If you are feeling disrespected, where are you disrespecting yourself? If you are feeling not heard, where are you not listening to yourself? If you are feeling abandoned or alone, where are you ignoring your own needs? Others should still be held accountable for their actions, and boundaries probably need to be made in some places, but you will find peace and healing the more you can focus back on yourself.

On the flip side of this, it is a time when true intimacy and connection can take place. Those that are operating from the same place as you will connect in new ways. New people will pop into your life and it will be like a missing piece falling into place. You will have the opportunity to feel truly seen, heard, and loved as long as you can get your head out of the way and be open and vulnerable enough to allow it.

No matter what, this time is going to push you forward and shake things up (sometimes literally, physically with natural disasters). The Fairies talked about this month being like riding white river rapids in the monthly message (read here). It's fast, intense, tumultuous, and can be scary or fun depending on how you want to look at it. You might be clinging to a boat that is carrying you down. You might feel like you got bucked from the boat and are being carried down. Either way, you will end up at the bottom of the river and make it out to sea.

If you find you are really struggling with this energy you might benefit from a Shadow Eclipse Reading. They can be found in the Store section as well as other services.

Fairy Message for July

2019 is racing past in my mind. Can you believe it is already July?! I will continue with the monthly messages from the Fairies. I remember when I was looking at the overall energy of the year, July was a peak of an energy spike. It was kind of like ultimate clarity about the twists and turns of the year so far. This is also eclipse season with two eclipses in the first part of July. An eclipse give us the opportunity to look at the shadow side of ourselves and our relationships. This doesn't mean bad, just what has been hidden, or we are in denial of, comes to light. There’s a mass consciousness shift happening that I am observing on a large scale in our society. People are releasing the need for more material things and embracing the experiences as a measure of success. The need to create, express, and become driven by passions is at an all-time high. July seems to be the high point of that arc. This means whatever you have still been holding onto that you think is keeping you safe will be challenged. It's time to let go and surrender deeper to your authentic self. Not everyone in your life will be resonating with you at this level. That is okay. They are not lesser or unawakened, just engaging in a different experience. Their soul path is leading them somewhere else. Again, it's about surrendering and letting go of expectation. Here is what the Fairies have to say:

July brings a bit of excitement. New ideas and new opportunities as well as lots of shifting and changes. When all is said and done, you will feel like the deck of your life was shuffled sufficiently. This may sound scary or exhausting, but it is not. All you need to do is show up and be present. The energies are working all around you. It will be clear what steps to take when. Just do them. Where the last six months have felt like swimming through murky water full of clutter, the next six are a fast stream flowing towards the sea. You just have to relax into the current. It doesn't mean calm waters, but rapids can be relaxing with the right mind set.

-The Fairies

What if your healing was just to connect deeper to Divine love?

I was having a “why me?” moment the other night. Just revisiting my year so far, the grief, the loss, and the pain. I know there have been plenty of joys, too, but I was in a mood.

Then I heard, within, “What if your healing was just to connect deeper to Divine love?”

I wanted argue. My healing was about financial stability, achieving success, being healthy, thin, and strong. My healing was so I could experience joy and peace. Right?! Don't I create my reality? This is what I want. Like I said, I was in a mood.

“Is that what your ego wants or what your Divine self wants?”

Crap! I knew that was what my ego wanted. It wants to be successful, have money, be thin, strong......and all of the perfection it can imagine.

Now, let me say, the ego is NOT a negative aspect of ourselves or something that should be ignored. Well, you actually can't because the ego is our conscious mind. That's all it is. The self that experiences the singular self, alone, and disconnected. It's needed to help us function in this reality. Money, success, health, appearance, joy, fame, and anything else that the ego desires is not inherently bad. It is great to be grounded, create stability in your life, and have goals for growth. All these help support your experience here on earth. The issue arises when you think that's the goal.

Let's say you go to an amusement park. You ride several rides, eat yummy junk food, take pictures, and maybe see a show. If you thought the goal was to get food, you would have missed out on the rides. If you spent so much time hyper-focused on getting the perfect picture, you would miss the moments you were experiencing there. The outcome of the amusement park was tasting food, riding rides, experiencing joy, but none of those were the goal. The goal was to go experience the amusement park. One simple thing. Show up and immerse yourself in the experience of the amusement park. Now, you might have got kind of sick from the food or didn't like one of the rides or missed the show. Did you fail at experiencing the amusement park? Was it a waste of time? Well, if you thought the goal was just to see that show or ride that ride, then maybe it would feel that way. If your goal was to experience the park no matter what, then it wouldn't feel that way.

So, in this amusement park called life, where is your focus? When you look at your healing and growth, how do you measure it? Is it how well you have achieved a level of perfection in your mind of who you are? Is it the way your life, your body, or your house looks? Again, I ask, what if your healing was just to connect deeper to the Divine? Ego doesn't like that answer often. It feels like a useless focus. It sounds like you are going to go meditate on the mountain and detach from life. What this is really saying is detach from your expectation of the outcome and focus on the experience. Then when you are present in the experience, notice all the ways that the Divine is sending you a love note. It isn't grief and loss that brings the Divine closer, it's that those experiences bring us to surrender and make us present in the moment so we can experience what is already there. What we experience as struggle, pain, and life not working out the way we want is in fact us running from the present moment. It is us running from pain, from truth, and from love. When you accept a moment exactly as it is and allow yourself to be immersed in it, you see all the truth. It doesn't mean it will be pleasant. When I watched my mother have a heart attack or have a seizure, when I heard my cousin was murdered, and when I experienced some of the most excruciating physical pain ever, it was not pleasant, but I was present for each of those moments. When something intense and soul-shaking happens in your life, you can't help but be present. Your brain just stops. That state of shock opens you to everything that is happening without a judgment, just for a moment, and allows you to just be. On the flip side, so does great joy. The first time I held each of my children, presenting at a Faery Congress for the first time, going to concerts, making love, and being in the ocean in Hawaii, I felt these time-bending moments also. My life has been filled with times I stepped out of my head and felt connected to the Divine in love. Some would say I just experienced my Divine self as I am. Others would say I was experiencing the grace of the Holy Spirit. Or maybe I am embodying the Goddess. It does not matter what you want to label it, it is being aligned with Divine light within. It is detaching from what you expected and just being in that moment. Of course nobody is perfect and this will be a dance for us all. Reaching for an expectation and then releasing it. I leave with a poem. Hafiz was a Sufi poet in the 14th century. He speaks of the Divine love beautifully in most of his poems.


I Know The Way You Get


I know the way you can get

When you have not had a drink of Love:

Your face hardens,

Your sweet muscles cramp.

Children become concerned

About a strange look that appears in your eyes

Which even begins to worry your own mirror

And nose.

Squirrels and birds sense your sadness

And call an important conference in a tall tree.

They decide which secret code to chant

To help your mind and soul.

Even angels fear that brand of madness

That arrays itself against the world

And throws sharp stones and spears into

The innocent

And into one's self.

O I know the way you can get

If you have not been drinking Love:

You might rip apart

Every sentence your friends and teachers say,

Looking for hidden clauses.

You might weigh every word on a scale

Like a dead fish.

You might pull out a ruler to measure

From every angle in your darkness

The beautiful dimensions of a heart you once

Trusted.

I know the way you can get

If you have not had a drink from Love's

Hands.

That is why all the Great Ones speak of

The vital need

To keep remembering God,

So you will come to know and see Him

As being so Playful

And Wanting,

Just Wanting to help.

That is why Hafiz says:

Bring your cup near me.

For all I care about

Is quenching your thirst for freedom

All a Sane man can ever care about

Is giving Love! 

- Hafiz

June Monthly Message

Here we are in June already! 2019 has been full and intense, but also seems to be whizzing by. This is the 6th Fairy Message I have posted this year. It's funny, I get the information and think I know what it means energetically. Then, at the end of the month, I go back and read it and have much more awareness about what they were saying. So, I'm not sure if these prepare us for the coming energy but they sure open us to embracing it better. On to what the Fairies have to say for June!

June will allow you to breathe. It's not necessarily restful, but the high intensity dissipates and you have more focus and clarity about whatever busy work you are doing. There is fun, new connections, and new adventures to explore. You prepared the ground, planted the seeds, and now it's time to weed and water. That's June. You will find some sprouts. You will even have some fruits of last year's labors appear, as if out of thin air. June is about putting one foot in front of the other each day. You won't be blocked or feel lost and that lets you peacefully work. You will have some time to rest, but even then your energy will be working to create. June asks you to be the Magician! Create, conjure, find your magic, and play. It will hardly feel like work when you dive into the passions that feed your soul. The time is ripe with possibilities. Go grab them.

-The Farm Fairies

May Monthly Message

I have been getting a monthly message from the Fairies about the overall energy that we have to work with for the month. You can read April's here. April was a turning point. Many found direction and/or started taking baby steps forward. Some got clarity and became willing to take direction about where they are going. So what does this mean for May? There will be further clearing of the path. You have the seeds of where you are going, but not the clarity of what you are creating. May brings the opportunities to see the vision clearly, stability in your path, and wisdom about the right steps and the right people to support you and move you forward. Here is what the Fairies have to say:

April showers bring May flowers, we hear Humans say. It is very true for this year. April may have been full of tears, facing pain, foreboding news, or mass change. All of these could by represented by storm clouds. You can perceive this as gloomy or you can see the positives to rain. It cleanses and clears everything it touches. Rain replenishes and soaks what has been stale. Rain is when the clouds take so much on they can no longer carry and they hit their breaking point. Rain is break through and surrender.

So what comes after the rain? Rainbows and flowers? Maybe. For some of you, it was the last bit needed to clear the path and move you forward. May will be gentle for those that are in this space. It may even feel a little stagnant or slow moving, but trust Divine timing. It can be a good month to plan fun things and find your joy. Like picking flowers, choose what looks the most beautiful to you.

For others, May is going to be the sun bursting through and a few more lessons to clear the path. May will not have the same intensity as April, but it has similar energies to manage. The more you can release any denial, or open to seeing what really is your reality now, the easier it will be to see what you’re moving towards.

Either way, May brings growth that you can see manifest in your physical reality. It is no longer the seed in the Earth trying to break the surface. This growth is about feeling. Trusting those feelings and trusting that those feelings will lead you to your truth. Seek the sunny warmth of joy, but don't pretend it's somewhere it's not. Open to releasing the pain and sorrow, but don't wallow thinking it is all you deserve. Allow your feelings to flow and bring you wisdom and intuitive insight. Find peace in your ever-changing inner landscape.

- The Fairies

Faith and Fear

Fear is the opposite of faith. You cannot be in fear and faith at the same time. Fear is taking ownership and control while faith is surrender. Fear tells you that you have to do something or not do something to keep yourself safe. Faith is knowing that safety is an illusion created to appease our ego-self that it has some sense of control. I know people who are very poor and people who are financially stable and both can be as afraid of homelessness as the other. Neither has safety, though they are trying to create it. Our minds are always looking for what will keep us safe. What choice is the right choice? The “safe” choice can even be a self-destructive one. That's because what is known and familiar feels safe. Even when this is actually abusive or hurtful.

So if safety is an illusion, then we must make the right choices to be good people, right? Good people is the goal? I would say no to this also. Kindness is often my goal, but what I see as kind might not seem kind to another person. Good, kind, safe, and stable are all subjective. Each can be defined many different ways depending on the person defining it. When we want to be good and kind or we strive for perfection, this is still an act of ego. Ego is not a bad thing, nor is striving to be good and kind. Just don't confuse that with your purpose or let it hold you back in life.

I have often found there are two kinds of scary in my life. There are the things, people, and situations that scare me out of self-preservation; they are harmful in some way. These can just be a gut feeling of danger and I steer clear. Example: I'm not about to jump in front of a bus. That fear protects me and has its purpose. Then there is the fear of the unknown, the fear of making a change by doing something different. My toes and feet get tingly whenever I'm about to take that risk. There are times I freeze up and get stopped in my tracks. It's when I get in alignment with faith that I can move forward.

For me, faith is trusting in a high knowing, that I'm walking a path that might at times be painful and feel hard, but it's exactly what my soul needs for its evolution. That I am Divine and the Divine is experiencing me, too. The fact that we are all The One and, no matter what, that never stops, and trusting all that energy is always shifting towards love, even when I act out in my dysfunction or try to sabotage myself or feel pain or try to hurt myself. Every moment, I am Divine, and so is everyone else. When we live in that acceptance, it allows us to be present with ourselves and surroundings and clearly see the guidance forward. It's an act of stepping out of judgment and into experiencing, being, and feeling. That is when wisdom and clarity comes. This is a dance and I only know a few that can maintain that way of being. I'm not one of them, but I do know I can choose it at any moment, and that gives me hope.

Rise Above the Fear

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I recently was doing a reading for a client when the Fairies spoke this nugget of wisdom: “Humans who are not empowered use fear and crazy behavior to try and control those around them. When you rise above that energy, out of the fear, they cannot control you.”

In my experience, when you start setting boundaries, the people who have been benefiting from you not having boundaries will start to act out. This can be conscious, but it also happens subconsciously. We humans have trouble with change. So, it can be difficult to make the decision to create a boundary in the first place. Once you do, those around you will try old and new tactics to gain a sense of control. Generally, this is because they feel unsafe in the new dynamic. You can be compassionate and still hold your boundary.

When you create a boundary, make sure it is set knowing what you are willing and not willing to do. It is not about changing the other person's behavior, just your participation in their behavior. You must know what you will do if someone does not respect that boundary. Look for the best path to detach yourself from the situation. This can be easy to do when dealing with someone who is well-meaning, but unconscious or unaware of their behavior. This is harder to do with someone who is narcissistic, controlling, or manipulative.

These types of people are not interested in your best interest no matter how much they may say or even think they are. These types are merely looking to take care of their own feelings, wants, and desires at the cost of everyone around them. They may suffer from addiction or other mental disorders that exacerbate the situation. Often, it is our own fear that drives us to keep engaging in codependent behavior with them. I don't mean to demonize anyone who is like this. They, too, are suffering and it is why they are acting out in this way. You can have compassion for their suffering without enabling toxic behavior.

To rise above the fear, as the Fairies said, is really the only way out of those dynamics. Do you fear being punished by their anger or behavior? Do you think you cannot live without them financially, emotionally, or spiritually? Do you think you can't survive in the world alone? I would like to point out that rarely is anyone truly alone. Most people have jobs, family, friends, neighbors, that even if they are distant, could be called upon if needed. Also, if you were alone for a while, you might start to find like-minded people.

Even the most peaceful, spiritually-centered people can fall victim to codependency. In fact, I find it is often the people who are not trying to judge and love the world unconditionally that fall into these situations. It is good and generous to want to help and care for others. I'm not suggesting that you cut people off that need help or to stop being kind. You have to look honestly at your relationships. If you are honestly helping someone, then they are as invested in it getting better or reaching their goal as you. If you are being kind you shouldn't feel like you have been slapped in the face when you are done. Compassion and kindness have to start with yourself. You have to respect yourself enough to know your value. If someone does not value you and continues to take from you while also putting you down or making you feel shame, there is no kindness in that situation.

You deserve peace, love, kindness, and compassion. When you rise above the fear, you can see the Divine meaning behind the situation or relationship. You open yourself to guidance from the Universe of your next highest and best step. You gain clarity about what you want and deserve. It is freedom in surrender and peace within the chaos. You may not be able to change it all immediately, but you can start to shift gently forward, and soon you will find your way out.

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April 2019 Fairy Message

I am continuing the Monthly Energy Messages with April. It is short and sweet because it is all about trust this month. Being real about who you can or cannot trust. Being willing to trust The One. Being willing to accept that your dreams could come true, and also question if they are what you want. When I did year-long readings for people, it seemed like April was going to be a great month, or at least a turning point, for many. Here's what The Fairies have to say:

Be the Fool! Naiveté does not make you stupid. Do not be so wise that you miss the opportunities because you think you know better. Your overthinking, over analyzing brain has you convinced you know all the options and see all the paths forward. April reveals a path you never thought possible or you couldn't even imagine. When you see it, do not hesitate. You may feel unworthy, or not trusting, or think it is a trick. Stay open, be the fool, and follow the guidance you are receiving. This all leads you to an amazing experience and it expands your consciousness again. God/Source/The One/Universe is carrying you forward. Allow yourself to be carried. There is no need to struggle. You can thumb wrestle The One all you want, but it won't stop the path; it will just make you more tired when you arrive. Let April bring you adventure of the best and most rewarding kind.”

-The Fairies